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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

The birthday girl and her birthday wishlist

hello, hello. I'm 23 today! ( should that be a 'yeay!' ? or dang ..?)

Well.. i don't mind being 23.. i mean.. age is just a number. But what i do mind is, what have i achieved up to this day in my life? Some people has even own a company at this age, being this CEO of a company at this age, married at this age (nah..put that aside, i'm not ready for that yet)..

anyways.. rezeki orang ada di mana-mana. maybe it's not my time yet. insya-Allah la, mine, soon to come.. so what? you get to be 23 once in your life time..so tak kesah la..

Abah left for Abu Dhabi today..and Nurin had found a new interest, the TV. Constantly switching it on and off. And following me around. My shadow. Aishh si kenit ni. I neglected her a bit today, sebab penat and confused pasal interview venue this friday. Kesian die..Will make it up to her later la... her Auntie Mimie is around, so she'll be orait la.

Celebration? A small one with the family. Without Abah. But it's okay. Abah handed me his gift before he left. =) .. hmmm..

I wished for something good to happen. Amin

So my birthday wish list? (it's too late to write it here, but this list is for someone who asked me earlier what would i want for my birthday. ok, this list is for YOU)

  • A nokia N93,
  • A Coach handbag,
  • PCD's hoodie,
  • Nine West's shoes,
  • Perlini silver's stainless steel ring, and
  • YOU, who asked me for this list.
(hehehe... Gile la.)

Sunday, July 23, 2006

The Babysitter and Nurin Zahirah Husna

Since Nurin Zahirah Husna came to stay with us along with Along and little Naufal, i can't seem to be able to rest my feet. The only time i get to rest is when Nurin sleeps. Her days starts as early as 8.00am. Nurin is so energetic!! I'm telling you chasing Nurin is one hell of an exercise routine.. One minute she's here.., one minute she's there.. one minute she'll stumble on something, one minute she'll trip and fall, one minute she'll ask you to take her see the cats, one minute she'll ask you where's her Atuk, one minute she wants her Opah, haishhh very challenging i must say.. and at the end of the say, there she sits, laughing at your crazy acts, and those stupid faces you make.

yeah, never had babies in our house before. It's really fun to have babies around. (Except the chasing bit). We have lots of doors and stairs at home, and although Abah had bought Nurin thousands of toys to play with, all she will do is throw her toys everywhere, and plays with doors, oh yea and climbs the stairs. funny thing is, if you DONT watch her, she'll just sit on the first step of the stairs; but if you DO watch her, she'll climb up to the top, knowing you'll come running after her. Which reminds me of me when i was a lil girl. Mama said i pretty much did the same. After all, we share the same last name, remember. So like Aunt like niece la.

That's Nurin Zahirah Husna, ladies and gentlemen.

Although i have a lot of 'looking out for Nurin' to do, it's back to Naufal that i love to kacau.. I can't stand looking at him sleeping peacefully. All i wanna do is wake him up and make silly faces so he'll smile. And yeah you should hear those funny noises Naufal makes everytime he feeds. Naufal doesnt cry a lot, so you'll always have to check him in his crib. (There's a myth Mama told us that it's not good for a baby boy to cry a lot, or else, his you-know-what will ermm.. hmm)

So life at home is hectic yet soothing.. yeah being the babysitter. ( i don't really look after Nurin, but when Mama wants to cook, i will take over. penat wooo) I didn't concentrate on all 3 CSIs today simply because i had to chase those little fast feet everywhere. Tiring.. And Nurin got her first bruise today. She was so excited playing hide and seek with her Auntie Uyuun that she stumbled upon a rug and hit the corner the dining chair. Ouch.

Now that Abah had left for Miri, and will be leaving for Abu Dhabi, and London in the weeks to come, I hope Nurin won't ask for her Atuk a lot. Not having her papa around is one thing, so her Atuk la selalu melayan Nurin.

So that doubles up my duty la. But its okay coz watching AF Diary is not the important TV agenda for me anymore since Lotter left. Yeah, I watch AF4. So what? Not that i'm a fanatic or anything but just that i like Lotter. I think he's charming, and funny, very very good at impersonating. He's the only reason i watch AF4. what? y'all laughing now? Go ahead. oh yeah i hope he gets voted back in. =)

It's been one hell of a day today. one coming tomorrow. and more in the weeks to come. It's a good thing Naufal hasn't got those fast feet yet, or else i might have to take livita everyday to keep up! But having those two adorables around is a good way to take my worries away.

Orait, i gotta hit the sack now. Time to recharge.. You'll never know what tomorrow has for me.. What will Nurin do tomorrow? Be prepared. Nites.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

The Silent Prayer

I wish to sleep in peace tonite, and wake up to a brighter tomorrow.
May the rain wash away the haze in my sky,
and let the sun shines all day long..

I hope to smile again.


Monday, July 17, 2006

My father the Hero

" I like to mind my own business and stay home, avoiding all invitation to satan's playzone"- Que Chill

My day pretty much started as early as 8.40a.m today.. i usually get up at around 10a.m ( i don't function well before 10, fyi) Nothing really important in particular.. just the thought of my dad/pepito/abah is coming home today. (His plane was scheduled to land later tonite, but what the heck)

I really miss the old guy.. I couldn't function well without him. And he's only gone to Egypt for a week. but i really miss him.. (Once, he left for Egypt for two weeks, i cried at the airport right after he left. ) He's probably the only one guy i stay loyal to.. Boo Hoo.. yes, I'm daddy's girl, always been, always will.

Without Abah, life becomes dull, and quiet. Mama goes to bed early when Abah's away. We would miss Abah as much as Mama would.. With Abah around, we have this karaoke session almost everynight..Abah would joke around, dancing and singing, creating ridicilous-yet-entertaining dance moves.

I owe a lot to Abah.. (and Mama) especially when Abah helped 'him' to land a job at Petronas. I never thought Abah would be so eager to help. In fact Abah was the one who would check 'his' result from time to time.

I screwed up thousands of time. yes. i wasn't the teenager with a perfect teenage life. Sneaking out at nights, being at places where i shouldn't be, when both of them were fast asleep. But Abah and Mama stood by me all the way. Despite how bad the school record was. Abah and Mama were there, picking up the pieces i left. But that's not how i wanted things to be. I've always adored Abah, and really want to be like him..dedicated, courageous, determined, patient..no words can actually describe him.

Oh no, ME, on the other hand, .. dedicated? NO. determined? At times. Patient? Oh yes...Alhamdullilah. If you were to read my entries in "These are my confession", that's the other side of me, literally, that's who i am on the outside.. i'm confused most of the time. Hence I create "Like A Star", that becomes the window i would spill my heart out. The voice within..

A pretender? yes. A pretender who wants to be the contender.

But i believe in KARMA. what goes around comes around, what goes up, must come down. Just have faith and pray for the better..And God will always be by your side, guiding from right and wrong. Insya-Allah.

Okay, okay..enough already!~

Be HAPPY about ONE thing; Mi PEPITO's coming home. =))

the 3 sisters,the best pepito ever.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Like A Star

They say if you have something on your mind that's bothering you,
you write it down. There are a lot of things that's bothering me.. a whole lot!!
Since the big change in my life.. ( i should be over it by now, it's been..what? 8 months) but no..it's not as easy as I thought it would be.. one day you're fine and couldn't be bothered, and the next day it's all back in your head.. and the endless what ifs and whys..

"Why things are not coming my way?"
"If only i could go back and fix everything.."

And it's all in the mind, they said. The problem with me is that i think way too much.. yes very very unhealthy.. and very very depressing.. my only hope is that God has better things to offer for me.. Amin

Being in this "awas tapir melintas" area doesn't help either. It's making me more and more miserable.. can't do much. Seeing friends can only be done on the weekends..Everyone has their own life now..A best friend started her career two weeks ago.. Wasn't her ideal career but it's a good way to earn your first paycheck.. Others have classes to attend. So phone calls are the best remedy. (she hasn't called during lunch anymore so i guess she's doing alright)

"What about you?," they ask. "What you been up to?,"

Oh me, you ask. well.. i'm pretty much jobless. a blogger still.and a daydreamer.. *sigh*

Waiting is very agonizing. I've been to one interview with PETRONAS and i'm really counting on it. i mean there's an 80% chance that i'll land a job there but it's just a matter of availability. PETRONAS no longer employ IT grads other than their Scholars (I'm an exception to the rule, so i really need to grab this opportunity.) My 5 years of studying at Uniten goes down the drain, just like that, since the job i might land has nothing to do with IT. I really want to be in the PETRONAS family. My dad has been with PETRONAS for 30 years, both my sister and brother-in-law, and my brother are with PETRONAS too. Not to forget himself,too. I grew up with PETRONAS. i know the PETRONAS' songs by heart.

So back to this interview thing. The result will be out in 3 weeks. by then i will know where i will be posted, and stuff. Even my dad couldn't take a peek at it. Not even himself.
I have reported myself to JPA (my sponsor) . So they too will call me to report for duty anytime. So it's whichever comes first now. .*sigh*

It's at times like this i miss being with fellow activity friends, nana, azera,yaya,zura and the rest. when we were doing things like we just don't care. the late night chat at the balcony of our on-campus apartment, the futsal matches, a&w pj, karaoke session, aihhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
need to gather friends back la..

O yeah.. before i forgot.. say hello to the latest addition to my family, the adorable little Mohd Zahirul Naufal, my nephew. I have yet to see him, but i will on Thursday. My sister will be here for a month. And just like a star,he's another reason to smile =)

btw the picture, from left to right: Nurin,mom,Naufal